No Art School. Ever.

You heard me rightly.

So I kind of made the most important decision of my life. I'd been thinking about it for at least a year, but kept swirling it around my head just so I wouldn't rush to conclusions or make up my mind too quickly.

For the last three years, I've wanted to attend art school after I graduated. This will not be happening anymore. Why? I realized I want to be a Psychologist. Like, a clinical psychologist. A therapist, essentially.
I think this will work so much better for me than being an artist ever would. For one, art has a way of stressing me out. A lot of people would say this is ironic. Whatever. I just feel so pressured to work on my art, and if I don't improve, then shame on me, I am a horrible person. It used to be fun, sure, but that was when I was a retarded 14-year-old weeaboo who knew nothing about art other than pseudo-anime drawings with disgusting bodies and proportions. Now it's just "You have to keep up the good work and produce nothing but masterpieces forever." Even if I continue improving with my artwork, I will never be good enough for my own standards. It's just too much pressure. I'll collapse if I keep this up.

So I've done the research and gotten the information. I'll start applying to schools in a matter of days, and I'll put Psychology as my projected major. I realize I'll end up spending 7 years in college (along with all the financial costs of said college X_x), but I strongly believe it will be worth it for me.
Psychology has always fascinated me. Everything from dreams to drugs to Sigmund Freud (Frood). I believe I'll do more good as a therapist than I would as a graphic designer or an animator of some kind. Mental illness is something that I care very strongly about, and as a Psychologist, I would actually be making an effort to help those people who are suffering from them.

I'm truly doing it for the love of Psychology. Yes, I really am so passionate that I would dedicate my life to it.

So, unfortunately for the few who enjoy my art: My days as an artist are coming to an eventual end. I'll probably still do a little bit of art on the side, but I am no longer seeking it as a career option.

Thank you for supporting me. I appreciate every little bit of it.

Together We Can

That's the theme for a new AP Studio project.
I like the idea for this theme. I've proposed a solution or two.

The first idea is "Together we can survive."
This goes along with the idea of fighting mental illness, a subject for which I'm very passionate. I need to draw up some sketches. My idea for this is having two people sit next to each other, holding hands. Each person is scarred, bandaged, and bruised. And the other person is the only thing keeping them alive. The finished drawing would only show the hands and laps of the people sitting.

The second idea is "Together we can fly."
This is a bit more lighthearted than my first idea. Two people are standing together, facing away from the viewer, with their arms entwined, holding hands. Each person has one wing on their back, and seems to be missing the other.

Thinking about composition, I think the first idea would work better. With the second idea, I'm unsure of what I would put in the background in front of the people. I kind of want the back to be just a solid color, to allow the foreground to speak for itself. However, I think this would upset the balance. Or something.

I dunno. I like both ideas. If I don't do one for the assignment, I'll probably do the other just as a personal project.


I love being inspired. ;u; Doesn't happen very often.

I'm almost ready.

Project #4 of 5 projects for school work. It's about halfway done.
The ones I've decided to include are:
- Imogen Painting (digital)
- This
- "Eyeclock"
- Book Project
- Self portrait

I think this provides enough variety just in my summer work that I should be able to go in whichever direction I decide to go. I'll be doing my self-portrait on canvas with paint (gulp).

My portfolio needs to be whipped into shape. I think I have a good foundation, now the next step is to build upon it.

I'm terrified.

Please hold me. ;_;

Um, k

It's cold in my room and I don't feel like sleeping. Tomorrow begins my last week as a Junior.
Even though I say that it's a scary thing, I'm actually quite glad. I've been dying for this year to be over. I smell summer, and it's never felt so good. Late nights (FINALLY), movies, picnics, swimming...

By the way, Frozen's layout is under construction. I'm trying to find a layout that works well for it, and still leaves room for custom adjustments. For now I think this is working well. The only thing missing right now is the, uh...the banner...but that's probably obvious...
The darks and lights are clashing enormously ATM, but I don't feel like going crazy with this right now. Sometime I'll sit down and do nothing but arrange the layout. Dunno when that'll be, though.

Guess what time it is! That's right, it's Dawnne's Make-A-List-Of-Things-To-Do-But-Don't-Actually-Do-Them-For-Several-Months-Or-Not-At-All Time!

I just want to tie up loose ends with this school year, and move progressively towards next year. I want to be productive this summer.

• Finish the creative grid assignment that's actually a huge part of my final grade.
• Finish CLA stuff
  
• Start on the book assignment for AP Studio
• Tell myself to draw more often
• Work on the logo commission
• Come up with a good layout for Frozen
• Do more studies
• Work on art trades with Elizabeth (from December? lol) and silvermoon822
• Redraw "Pretty Girl" just for practice and for the lulz
• Paint on a canvas for the first time (I really want to do this)
  
• Anatomy. 'Nuff said.
• Splurge on art supplies (and effing use them)

Well, hopefully I'll make some progress this time!