No Art School. Ever.

You heard me rightly.

So I kind of made the most important decision of my life. I'd been thinking about it for at least a year, but kept swirling it around my head just so I wouldn't rush to conclusions or make up my mind too quickly.

For the last three years, I've wanted to attend art school after I graduated. This will not be happening anymore. Why? I realized I want to be a Psychologist. Like, a clinical psychologist. A therapist, essentially.
I think this will work so much better for me than being an artist ever would. For one, art has a way of stressing me out. A lot of people would say this is ironic. Whatever. I just feel so pressured to work on my art, and if I don't improve, then shame on me, I am a horrible person. It used to be fun, sure, but that was when I was a retarded 14-year-old weeaboo who knew nothing about art other than pseudo-anime drawings with disgusting bodies and proportions. Now it's just "You have to keep up the good work and produce nothing but masterpieces forever." Even if I continue improving with my artwork, I will never be good enough for my own standards. It's just too much pressure. I'll collapse if I keep this up.

So I've done the research and gotten the information. I'll start applying to schools in a matter of days, and I'll put Psychology as my projected major. I realize I'll end up spending 7 years in college (along with all the financial costs of said college X_x), but I strongly believe it will be worth it for me.
Psychology has always fascinated me. Everything from dreams to drugs to Sigmund Freud (Frood). I believe I'll do more good as a therapist than I would as a graphic designer or an animator of some kind. Mental illness is something that I care very strongly about, and as a Psychologist, I would actually be making an effort to help those people who are suffering from them.

I'm truly doing it for the love of Psychology. Yes, I really am so passionate that I would dedicate my life to it.

So, unfortunately for the few who enjoy my art: My days as an artist are coming to an eventual end. I'll probably still do a little bit of art on the side, but I am no longer seeking it as a career option.

Thank you for supporting me. I appreciate every little bit of it.

I'm almost ready.

Project #4 of 5 projects for school work. It's about halfway done.
The ones I've decided to include are:
- Imogen Painting (digital)
- This
- "Eyeclock"
- Book Project
- Self portrait

I think this provides enough variety just in my summer work that I should be able to go in whichever direction I decide to go. I'll be doing my self-portrait on canvas with paint (gulp).

My portfolio needs to be whipped into shape. I think I have a good foundation, now the next step is to build upon it.

I'm terrified.

Please hold me. ;_;

Aha!

I actually finished this a few minutes ago. 8D
I did this in 2 sittings, in a little under 10 hours total.
I've had iTunes on shuffle the entire time, and JUST NOW the first Immi song is coming up. Ahaha. Funny. I have 64 songs by her, and none of them played while I was painting this.

I'm very surprised and very happy with my result.
And it actually has a resemblance to her! :')

Here's the reference image I used: -LINK-

I don't know if I want to include this in my portfolio or not. I plan on having a Design portfolio, not a Drawing portfolio, so...
I guess I could include it anyway, even if it isn't very design-oriented. I could totally bullshit my excuse. :D "It's design because it's the DESIGN of her face that makes it identifiable to her fans." Pffffhahaha

This is actually the first time I learned what color her eyes are. Seriously. I'm a huge fan, but it seems like her eyes are a different color every time I see them.

She does not look like she's 32 years old. She really doesn't.

Please give me feedback~ I would love to hear what you think I should improve on!