The Forever Project

Possible redesign for Anarithia.

(oh, wow, it's been so long since I've posted anything about Anarithia that there's not even a post tag for it yet)

Yeah, I've officially begun on completely reworking Anarithia. I'm starting with character designs, because I think the plot only needs a little bit of tweaking. Compared to the rest, anyway.
Characters, chapters, style, format, dialogue, and even things like the town map and architecture...they all are in desperate need of being redone.

I've decided to name this the Forever Project because that's how long it will take to complete. For real.

Don't mind me, just popping through the walls

aklsdjf;lkasd I'm so sick of looking at thissss
M. C. Escher style self-portrait. It turned out looking exactly like me. Shitty photo, but I really do not care at all. There's a better photo, but I don't have access to it ATM. I'll fix this post when I get it. EDIT: fixed now~

I'm wanting to do more Copic/Prismacolor marker drawings, but I can't really come up with anything. Plus it's hard to make traditional art with markers when you only have 12 different colors, the majority of them being skin tones. And I don't have the kind of money to just throw at buying markers online...particularly markers that I hardly ever use.
I want to use the markers I do not have.

:I

Quite a problem I have here.

Tell me what you know.

Would you still love me
if I didn't breathe?
As you drag these heavy
mechanical limbs across the
scraping tile floors in hopes
that you can find a cure

Would you still heal me
if it took my life?
This crippling cursed disease
rotting my flesh and soul from the
inside out and tearing me
away from what I once admired

Would you still chase me
if you knew it held inescapable?
Running away as fast as my
dead-weight legs can carry me and
screaming at the top of my lungs in
firm belief that someone will find me

Would you still hold me
if I never deserved it?
Please take your justified right
to flee for your life and retreat
to the ends of the Earth as
far away from me as possible

Would you still love me
if I couldn't love myself?

~Cocoa~

My boyfriend isn't feeling very well, so I made him some hot chocolate (if only metaphorically, it's the thought that counts, right?).
Whoa, traditional art
No shirt or mug color porque estoy cansada y no me gusta encontrar marcadores. :<

WELL, LOOK AT THE TIME LOL

Yet another AP project (whoopee)

The beginning to the next AP project (due at the end of class tomorrow, hurr hurr)
We're supposed to imitate the style of a famous artist in a self-portrait. I chose M.C. Escher (my first mistake). Basically, I'm having my head pop out of a 2-dimensional drawing on a picture frame. It's a little hard to see in the photo.
Holy crap, aside from the first assignments due at the beginning of the school year, this is the first traditional piece I've done specifically for AP. O_o

I actually think it's progressing quite well. It has a resemblance to me, for starters.
We'll see. I'm new to this whole "optimism" thing...

No Art School. Ever.

You heard me rightly.

So I kind of made the most important decision of my life. I'd been thinking about it for at least a year, but kept swirling it around my head just so I wouldn't rush to conclusions or make up my mind too quickly.

For the last three years, I've wanted to attend art school after I graduated. This will not be happening anymore. Why? I realized I want to be a Psychologist. Like, a clinical psychologist. A therapist, essentially.
I think this will work so much better for me than being an artist ever would. For one, art has a way of stressing me out. A lot of people would say this is ironic. Whatever. I just feel so pressured to work on my art, and if I don't improve, then shame on me, I am a horrible person. It used to be fun, sure, but that was when I was a retarded 14-year-old weeaboo who knew nothing about art other than pseudo-anime drawings with disgusting bodies and proportions. Now it's just "You have to keep up the good work and produce nothing but masterpieces forever." Even if I continue improving with my artwork, I will never be good enough for my own standards. It's just too much pressure. I'll collapse if I keep this up.

So I've done the research and gotten the information. I'll start applying to schools in a matter of days, and I'll put Psychology as my projected major. I realize I'll end up spending 7 years in college (along with all the financial costs of said college X_x), but I strongly believe it will be worth it for me.
Psychology has always fascinated me. Everything from dreams to drugs to Sigmund Freud (Frood). I believe I'll do more good as a therapist than I would as a graphic designer or an animator of some kind. Mental illness is something that I care very strongly about, and as a Psychologist, I would actually be making an effort to help those people who are suffering from them.

I'm truly doing it for the love of Psychology. Yes, I really am so passionate that I would dedicate my life to it.

So, unfortunately for the few who enjoy my art: My days as an artist are coming to an eventual end. I'll probably still do a little bit of art on the side, but I am no longer seeking it as a career option.

Thank you for supporting me. I appreciate every little bit of it.

YESSSS

*victory dance*
It's fiiiiiiiniiiiiiiishhhhhhhheddddd
AfteronlyaweekOTL

Together we can fly.